.2.0.1.2.

Alright just 2 days left in this year and I hope the new year turns out good for everybody.

Not a very good year for romance in 2012 for those around me and off course, for me too. On the brighter side, I am able to survive by myself for 5weeks without the help of my mum, Thailand! Had a rather rare experience in a C130 for 4hours, being cramped up barely enough space to move my legs. I guess this is the peak moment in year 2012.

Tomorrow will be the last day of work this year, and an extremely important and crucial day for me. For those in my squadron will know what I mean. I have to be extremely careful in my words as well as giving politically correct and smart answers, omg lil stressed.

The upcoming family day in my squadron will totally be in my hands. It was preferred to be in-base and yet I'm so limited with choices.. I gotta please a lieutenant colonel directly -___-

There's exercise top ace as well. I might have a chance to prove my ability and probably get Outstanding Serviceman of the Month.. and if i get outstanding serviceman of the year..... I might just get a ride in the backseat of this!!




My dream is to get on for a joyride

2013 won't be an easy year for guys of my age who went polytechnic. We'll have to adjust to the studying life in no time right after we ORD. I might just spend my weekends studying at home? I really can't imagine myself doing it, cause I just can't sit still on a Saturday!! Damn.

But I have to take on all these challenges positively. Whether or not I wanna come home after work seeing a blissful family or I wanna come home after work everyday unhappy depends on the next 5-6years.

I hope to move on... confidently tell myself I'm out of this hole.

So guys enjoy your last few moments of this year!

:)

Coming to an end..

Less than half a month to end year 2012. Hmmm... well, the same old mixed feelings. 2013 is not gonna be an easy for many of us who are gonna ORD. Some are gonna further their studies, some going overseas and some carrying on with their career. Hope I still keep close contact with all these cool friends.

Got myself lots of new things recently, I feel guilty. Spending too much!! Splurge about 250sgd on the iPhone 5.. almost 430sgd on the red wing shoe.. and I think I'm getting this in 2 days time...

V-moda true bloodmaker but black in colour

after 17% discount its around 160sgd but to me the bass is really booming man...

Need to stop spending!

Damn, looks like I won't be going Thailand next year, I thought I can save up another huge sum of money to finance my university days :(

So many people around me are falling love, getting in serious relationships. Suddenly, almost all my batch boys have a girlfriend. I'm still standing alone.... :/

Still.

Its been a long time since i blogged, getting lazier each day after I end work. I told myself I will start revising and look back those textbooks and maths stuff when I'm back from Thailand but looks like nothing is done...

The much discussed show that is really nice:

Lan Kwai Fong 2

 

Part 2 can be found from the related videos.

Not asking you to enjoy the sex part, but off course for guys, enjoy the hot and sexy babes yeah. I enjoy watching the love part most, Rain and Summer.

Bring back lots of memories.

Lots of new updates on music recently, Pitbull and Taylor Swift were the biggest catch. Surprisingly, Taylor Swift album was amazingly special and slightly clubbish. 

Huge change in management in my Squadron recently.. Those enciks who just came back from US simply suck and fail to spare a thought for NSF like us zzz. I wonder if my leaves and OIL can be approved for school next year, damn shit.

Currently, I'm addicted to this song!!! Too good I swear.

Alright all, have a good night sleep.

Dreadful feeling.

Its not so much about the wait.. Its about the hope.

You know when you are hoping for something to really happen and go smooth for you, its already a mindfuck.

So now the hope is fucked.

 

12hrs to go.

Its just gonna be 5weeks but i still feel its gonna be a longgg detachment. Probably because this is the first time I'm leaving home for such a long time!! There will be no one to argue with my mum hahah.

Gonna wake up as early as 3.30am tomorrow, damn it. Just because we are the juniors going detachment, they use us to help AMC for palletising. Turbannn.

I hope the anti-motion sickness pill is gonna work perfectly fine for me, heard the ride is quite disastrous lol.

Gonna miss lots of shit in Singapore, so peeps please update me when I'm back. Cya all! 

Excited.

Alright! 5 more days to my virgin experience in a charlie 130, heard that its not a very pleasant ride anyway.

Lots of shit to do when i touch down in Thailand, thought advance party is relaxed. Okay the list is out and this guy will be my baby for the whole of 5 weeks if there's no changes.

641!


Fortunately its a C model, looks clean and good, hope it doesn't give me any problems! Gonna really be a exciting and crazy detachment, I hope.

Gonna catch imperfect tomorrow and meet secondary school friends to give Jacq a farewell surprise, hope she doesn't read my blog though lol!

Oh man, my Taiwan trip in December is most probably gonna be cancelled sian. Anybody interested to go with meeeee? :(

Fun.

Alright another weekend has passed and I'm one step closer to working at a flight line. Holyshit!

Changing about 1.2ksgd to Thai Baht, should be more than sufficient for me to spend there. Bringing another additional 300sgd just in case.

Had a batch boy meet up yesterday, settled down for dinner at Telok Blangah for Laksa steamboat. We over ordered like crazy thanks to the china woman who refuse show us a sample for one serving. We freaking ordered 70 plates of food la, hotdogs, seaweed chicken, chicken meat, pork meat kang kong, wtf everything you can think of, we ordered. All of us eat until wanna vomit LOL omg so funny please.

If you can see the final price tag, its 270sgd Laksa steamboat for just 6 pax!! So guys if you are heading there some day I suggest you under order first, and than slowly order plate by plate. Can you imagine even those tables with 9 pax also ordered much lesser than us.

Down to Vivo Starbucks to chill and chat. One of the best weekend cause we sit down together, talk shit with no time limit. This is how a NSF should spend a weekend man.

Alright, just had my G-star jeans altered. To be honest the material is slightly better than Nudie, cause its soft and comfortable.

Yeah man love the dark blue denim colour.

Damn its gonna be a long detachment this time round. Have to reach Paya Lebar airbase at 5.30am omg?!
I'm still left with sewing my rank on my top piece, fucking short of time man, they should at least give us 1 day to settle all the uniform and admin matters.

Short-tempered recently, no idea why, lack of love maybe. Lolllll

Set fire to the rain.

Finally, back home after 24hours of duty. I was attentively listening to the National Day Rally 2012 yesterday right before bed time, and now I'm stuck between choices.

PM Lee said something "like don't go to local universities just because its a path everyone will take" and that "Singapore Institute of Technology (SIT) will be the 5th university in Singapore...."

I'm fucking tempted to switch to Aerospace Electronics in SIT now, argh. I really think that I'm not totally an electronics student studying in NUS.

HOW?!?!?!

Any good advice?

Back on a swing.

Another short weekend, oh man.

There was last minute changes to the guard list so I'll be back tomorrow. Damn.

I hope the Taiwan trip can be sorted out as soon as possible, I can't wait to go overseas during my long leave in December. I still have quite a number of OIL, hope to spam it all at one shot. The weather will be sex and the food will taste even better, holyshit, I really hope we go!

Need to have some drinks, take a chill and say NO.

Wake up call.

Oh well, thanks for that reminder.

People who you can't live without, can live without you.

Shattering

Oh well, I guess majority of Singaporeans enjoyed a long weekend except for some, and unfortunately I belong to some. Today is the only rest day and very soon, it goes back to the same routine again.

I need to watch a movie and I wanna watch this:



Guess lots of people already watched it because of the long enjoyable weekend..

Other than times I've spend in squadron, I realised that I'm a very unhappy person. Its like once I step out of Tengah Airbase, my mood changed. There's too much work to do in squadron so I don't even have time to think about anything, eventually I'll be one of those no life dude and spend most of my time in base.

People often say life's short why not be happy? But I just can't and looks like I can understand those who are in the same shoes as me.

Please erase off those unhappy and hurting memories of mine, and I'll be a happier man, please.

Torturing Tuesday.

Oh fuck man, got bruises and abrasion here and there on my body today. Its really a shit day.

1. While pumping the JFS, the whole stainless steel bar whack onto my head, causing a baluku
2. Ram my hips on a freaking 15cm diameter bolt on the wing tank
3. Got abrasion on my thighs probably because of my pants, never had this before, don't really know why the fuck it will happen today
4. I don't know why the fuck the engine oil blasted out from the pipe when I was doing servicing, scratched my arm on the door and got burnt by the fucking oil. It hit right on my face also zzz
5. Got fucked because I added a new page in my form right before we are going home

What the bullshit nonsense is this seriously.

Maybe I was distracted all the while, over things which I shouldn't dwell on about.

Alright, some new trainees came to fuck my jet up as well today and also delaying my time. I just realised, JC boys really can't work, probably they can be a lawyer cause all they have to do use their brain memory and talk. I don't call them JC guys cause they are simple too childish when I heard what the fuck they are talking about. They suck really badly in hands on shit.

So much of complains, yet I still like what I'm doing, just ran out of a safety charm beside me today.

If we're really gonna watch a movie this weekend, I can't wait!



Yeah if we meant to be we will.

OMG WTF MORNING.

Before I wanna say anything, I would like to thank my IC and the guard duty personnel at the church gate. What a holy shit morning. CP called me at 3.57am asking where the fuck I was, I totally jumped out of my bed shouting "fuck!" lol! Literally shouted it out loud. If there's a video camera in my room, I'm sure it will be a epic video hahah. I quickly changed into my uniform while brushing my teeth in just 3mins, don't ask me how I did it so fast cause I had no idea either.

I ran down, and the fucked up thing was I never had problems getting cab at this timing except today!! Had to walk all the way to the traffic light opposite Jurong Point till I get a cab. I was like "UNCLE TENGAH AIRBASE FASTER I'M RUSHING". I swear he fucking freaked out and thought that Singapore was like going to war with some country, lol max. Fortunately, this particular guard duty personnel is really damn nice to let me in, the church gate was suppose to close at 4am but it was already 4.12am then. If I were to enter by the main gate it will take me additional 10 freaking minutes. Phew, I ran like nobody's business, sweating like fuck and took over my jet.

What a morning....

No activities for me today just a chilling relaxed Saturday, would be a good rest for the upcoming week.

Hmmmm, well now its so clearly written on your face. Guess no time for hope, cause the hope, is all....

National Day..?

Alright gonna spend my National Day in camp yet again. 1year ago, over 600 botaks in Tekong were sitting in front of the pathetic television watching the nation celebrate, that was one of the worst feeling ever. I swear next year I'll be fucking near the parade watching it live, like what I did 3years back where life was so carefree and perfect. I didn't expect that I would be in camp again this year, well I guess other than this, almost everything changed.

Yizhong and I is definitely gonna be the main crew chief tomorrow, gonna be semi-hell tomorrow.

Went for my dental appointment cause I'm going for overseas detachment. I don't even know why until my encik told me this wtf thingy. He said that in case we die overseas we can use the X-ray of our gum to match our bodies. WTF?!

Hmmm. Random thoughts but..
I believe that if you are really willing to put in all your effort for something that you really want, everything is possible. Off course, don't expect yourself to be a millionaire before 30 and fucking think that by working hard now you are gonna make it. Life is never easy and its never gonna be a straight line graph, its always a curve that's why people always say "life is tough". When you ever see a tough math question where the line is straight? There will always be happy and sad times, face it.

But life is short, I feel that we should make the most of it, be happy. But how are you even gonna feel happy if you don't work for the things you want.

Alright, I'll be on duty on Saturday from 4am till afternoon, hope to catch a movie with the guys in the evening. Either one of this will do hahahah.







Off course I won't prefer to watch Ice Age 4, spending 11bucks to watch cartoon is kinda retarded lol.

Hope we will get off on Friday, can spend some time with my batch boys... This week is like damn tiring again, the management like to take everything in their hands and we NSFs gotta tank it. Shit man. Gonna watch some movies in awhile chillout and rest

Alright, buzz off people.
Hey you, will we?

Too much

One word,

Unhappy.

Shaky Monday.

Well, as usual again, weekends flew past pretty fast but its a good one though. Met up with just Jason in town for some pool session and dinner initially. It would be sad and wasted if we were to be home before 12am. So we plan to go for some drinks, like have a beer chit chat chillout at some bar. However..... We suddenly thought of  the remaining Sour plum vodka at Zouk! Hahah. Its crazy you know, just 2 of us going to club with 28 shots of vodka in front of us and we desperately need to finish em. Don't ask me why, lol! It was a good music night, spend most of my time at the pillar enjoying the songs. Jason had a better one...... HAHAHA.

So much of a fun Saturday but Sunday was over when i woke up. It was like 4.38pm when my eyes grew open, I still remember the exact timing because I can't believe my own eyes lol. Rushed off for my appointment to get my long hair trimmed off, nobody would believe I'm serving National Service with that hair length.

Oh man, what a Monday to start off really... I'm shagged out already?! 4 more days to go -__-

One of my batch boy got so Emo when he got fucked really badly for making terrible mistakes. He even said that he would rather go Army "simple job just chiong and shoot". It is funny (not to be mean) because he is usually a not affected by scoldings type of guy. Our job is really not easy like what people think of Airforce NSFs, the 8-5pm slackers.

Damn, in a blink of an eye I realised that I've been smoking for 6months. Not those really screwed up type, on average its a pack every fortnight. I've probably shorten my life span for 6years but from the massive amount of stress we receive everyday, its not easy to deal with. Guess somebody need to be there to stop me... One advice, don't start.

Just as i thought of the somebody who can stop me from continuing...

I had a bad feeling about something, not really appropriate to write about it out here. The scary thing is that this feeling is firm, its like as if I'm already with dealing it right now. And there, in less than a few days and a few hours ago, I receive my first hit...

Its hard to share shit with someone who isn't really in your shoes really, even if he is your really best friend, don't you think so? The most you can do is to brag about the problem but in the end its you who face it.

Probably because its a Monday so it explains my crazy thoughts...




I sincerely hope that its Just because of Monday Blues.

One step here and there.

What a rough and rocky week for us, especially for Yizhong and me. Was on duty last Sunday, did non-stop flying till Friday. By Thursday I'm seriously drained out, no amount of redbulls would help at that point of time. My mind was filled with weekends.

The management organised a squadron lunch for our CWO who is leaving for PC2, some seniors who are gonna ORD like next week and some regulars going over to US too. Omg when those seniors receive their ORD plague, I can't wait for that day to come. However, if you think from another point of view, when you are about to ORD, means hell starts, university life is probably even more crazier than now.

Surprisingly, the food was really good. Btw its held at Ban Heng Pavilion Restaurant at Habour Front shopping centre. I heard that it was 16.80sgd per pax and its definitely worth it if you're really gonna sweep their kitchen. Imagine, you can order unlimited amount of Tze Char dishes. But definitely more suitable for guys hahahah.

Well, its a brand new week soon and I'm soaked in mixed feelings...

This is fucking a awesome picture taken by my senior during NDP rehearsal 2012.

Performing one of the tightest turns ever, roughly 9G.

21st birthday!

What a wonderful birthday celebration i had last Saturday! Although many was late but still those who i expected or hope to be present were there, thank you all for coming :)

I was there super early like 5pm, shift the sofa around. Didn't expect so many sofa and tables provided, so there was quite a number of extra chairs and unused tables. Luckily I have my auntie to help me collect my 3kg cake, hahah. Its like super big, will post the pictures once i got it.
Headed to Zouk after that because Phuture was like super duper full. But still fuck the bouncer at the entrance, so damn rude la.

Opened a sour plum vodka and Arif got owned by it hahahah. Seriously, for those first timers drinking the sour plum vodka shots, and is ready to party hard that day will definitely get drunk. So my advice for girls is, watch out! Its tricky.

Opened the presents the following day and i love every one of it to the fullest :) Those Airforce guys gave me a porter wallet which is damn nice. Kinda like the material, colour and the compartments inside. I wanted to get myself a perfume when i have time but seems like the J's know what i have in mind hahah. They got me a YSL perfume, the smell is kinda special and pleasant.

My usual weekend clique gave me like the biggest voucher i will ever receive in my life i guess.

So i use the voucher to buy my iTouch and Manhattan backpack! Kinda need this 2 badly, cause the bag which my Sis got for me from Taiwan is torn. The iTouch is gonna keep me accompanied everywhere i go.

My cousin gave me a G star tshirt although they didn't come because his girlfriend had serious back pain. Very thankful for that hahah.

Most importantly was the humongous red packet i received from my parents, sister, grandma and aunties! I'm gonna save the money and put to good use! :)

Once again thank you all!

Birthday off, leaves and OIL is over, now back to reality. Sunday I'm on duty at 4am wtf?!?! Walao i wasn't even late once for the month and i don't even owe them OIL and yet i'm on weekend duty. Fuck man. Zzzzz

The Dark Knight Rises


Too bad, nobody is free this Saturday so gotta push to next week.. Which might be a good thing because i might not enjoy my show knowing that i have to wake up at 2.30am that night...

Alright gonna sleep soon and prepare for the OC interview tomorrow, its TGIF soon!

Is it a hint?

Happy boy.

Hey all! Been a busy week for me and probably for everyone.
Took the same jet for 5 days already, I kinda know it inside out and i even washed it yesterday. Its funny but i had feelings for my jet, maybe because i've been touching it like everyday lol. Sad to say it has been towed away so most probably won't be taking it already..

Its my birthday celebration tomorrow! Kinda worried that things might not be carried out as planned, but i totally don't have a backup plan. Damn. Can't wait to see all my friends tomorrow, it will definitely be weird but should be okay uh.

Bought the short sleeve Japan collection Fredperry shirt.. Cost a bomb la, but I really like it. The most important thing is to feel good tomorrow, if I'm gonna wear long sleeve it will not be so comfy. So guys wear something comfortable, lol!
Much thanks to Farhan really, booked out from Sembawang camp just to help me buy the shirt so that i can enjoy 15% off.. Gonna treat him chippys some day hahahah.

Hopefully Encik Gan will grant my birthday off on Monday, and I'll be on leave on Tuesday. Long weekends! Its commando sling next week and flying program is like 4 turn 4 turn 7 turn 7. Holy shit luckily I'm on leave. Hahah all my batch boys will suffer max. Oooopps.

Been so into this drama recently on top of Tiger Cubs,


Its a mixture of police and love, fucking awesome. Somehow I can feel the love in the show probably because I was deeply in love before... Its because of the guy and the girl open herself to the world, damn..

Yokodomoyomoyoho

Less than 1 week to go!

I'm sitting right in front of my computer on a Sunday morning just to blog, oh man how no life can i be... Just got up not long go and was doing some research on the Fredperry shirt i saw yesterday.
Its some Japan collection shit, its 240sgd for shirt and 200 for polo wtf. The colour combination is really nice, the fitting was good and its so comfy... Shall spend some time to think if its worth it though.

I've been watching this Hong Kong drama series recently,


Its about the life of Special Duties Unit and some action pact crime, but the subtitle is in Chinese.. Luckily they speak Cantonese and I understand a bit, so if any of you wanna watch it online, you can ask me for the link, its quite clear. They are still filming it so there are only 2 episodes, so they will only release one episode every week.

Its less than one week to my 21st birthday celebrating :) Kinda happy about it because of the long weekends I'd have, took leave on Friday and the following Tuesday because i have birthday off on the Monday woohoo. It will be a good time to rest before the tiring AFO audit shit.

Hope to hit the club next Saturday after the mini celebration, Jason asked for it... HAHAHA. So if any of you is interested to join us please tell me!

I'm kinda worried that the mini party might not work out but I have no fucking idea what it is. I just keep thinking I left out some small but important thing.. Drinks, food, chairs, tables etc... What else did i miss out?!?!

Oh, I missed you out.

Overseas detachment..

Back home from a tiring but fruitful day :) Quite satisfied with myself other than a bad mistake in the cockpit in the morning..

Saw the 8th Udon overseas detachment manpower and my name was inside. Hmm, i was happy at the start but than a mixture of sian-ness and I don't know what feelings circle round my head. Its not a short one, 5 weeks, from 14th September to 19th October if there isn't any changes :/

Browse through yahoo news and found this pretty interesting, might wanna spend some time reading it. Its just one of five points on how to find the perfect man.

Hold on to him

Some people have no trouble finding a man, but when it comes to the more serious post-infatuation stage something goes wrong. If that sounds familiar, it may be due to your chemical biology. When we fall in love there are three main chemical phases. First comes lust (which is driven by testosterone and estrogen), then comes attraction (a stage instigated by neuro-transmitters called monomamines), then comes the attachment phase. The key hormone in the attachment phase is oxytocin.  Oxytocin promotes bonding in adults and it is released when adults are being intimate. It is thought that the more sex a couple has the deeper the bond. So, maybe a night or two more under the covers will help you stay strong with the next guy.

Lol. Hold on to him uh.

Forecasted my leave for December hahahah. I sound so kiasu right, but tell you what, there are 4 people faster than me wtf?! My leave might not be approved on one of the days because there are too many people taking leave on the same day, sian! I want a long holiday right before a new year starts.
It has already be confirmed that there will be only 3 major holidays that we will be affected, that is this year's national day, new year eve, and the third day of next year's chinese new year. Not too bad la..

This is one good shit I've been addicted to for quite a few days.

 

:)

We are on our own.

Omg what a tiring day, my brain is totally dead. Finally, we are officially allowed to sign off the aircraft today! So guys if u hear those F16 roaring above you, that particular jet could be signed off by me! Hahah its a good achievement, but the amount of stress i receive is no joke. We were always helping out seniors and they will sign the aircraft "fit for flight", but now, we do and we sign, responsibilities... Signature on a legal document uh.
As usual, when you work alone for the first few days regardless of your job scope, you will definitely get fuck real bad on the first day, so yeah we got ours.

Its gonna be the same tomorrow, kinda excited but on the other hand, I'm scared lol. Everytime we see the jet taxi out, we hope to see it back without problem in one piece.


This guy here is basically my second wife for the next 1 year.

Waiting for my mum to dapao my favorite pineapple rice, and soon after dinner I'm gonna sleep, okay la its better to be home than in camp teehee.

There's basically nothing to look forward on weekdays, just base and home, home and back to base..

Damn, I'm turning 21 in a couple of weeks time. Seriously?! Can u believe a fat me, golden long hair me and a flower hair me is gonna be a young adult?!

Shit.

I still feel the same like I'm just a young teenager, hang out with retarded friends around me. Time just past so fast, we really need to make use of every single minute. Chillac....

If only back then, i could understand you, and know what the result will be like...
I miss you.

Weekends over, nooooooo

Didn't do shopping as planned thanks to last minute Arif!! Wanna kill him so badly please, hahahah. Spend 2 precious hours accompanying him to Simlim yesterday to repair his PSP, wtfug?! The funny thing was after purchasing a new battery.. We realise that the buttons won't work, it will only work if the charger is plugged on LOLLLL epic.

Wanted to shop for a shirt for my birthday one lorrrrrrr...

Its okay though, I still have next week and the Friday before the actual celebration. There were rumors about Spiderman sucks, but to me its not bad, storyline as expected off course, there's nothing much they could do about it, but its the action that makes the movie good.

Chillac after dinner at TCC and we got chased away smlj. I thought TCC is a place for chattings and catching up.... Stupid.

The interesting thing was the conversation by the river yesterday and i am very amazed by some new facts... Shhh

Its the Euro 2012 finals later on! Anybody watching?!..

I'm still deciding if i should force myself to watch, its just once in a few years.. but i'm so lazy. Shall see bout that later on.

The buffet company called me yesterday morning and she just told me one of the most ridiculous shit ever i heard in my life. She said that the function room in Parc Vista condominium is at the second story and there are no lifts provided, so their workers have to climb the narrow stairs up. Therefore, i have to pay additional 50sgd so that they can hire more workers to make live easier. WTF?! Hello, i'm not paying 70bucks for the buffet, its fucking 700bucks yo. Whatever, but I don't have a choice so I'll just pay for it lol! Bullshitcrapnonsense.

Shall chillac on ma bed and read some books!

They say just do it.

Never say anything and everything when you're mad

I just read this story and I find it so similar to my past, till present i guess.

 

A girl agreed to the guy's proposal because he convinced her that she was the missing part from his heart. Naturally, problems came into the picture and they quarrel very often. There was this once where it got so heated up that he said "Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together, you were never the missing part of my heart!"
It hurt the girl badly and soon later they went separate ways..  Five years went by and he never remarry but tried to find out bout her life indirectly. He regretted his actions really badly, but never tried to get her back. He couldn't admit that he was missing her...

There was this sentence which really make me wanna carry on reading, "In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart" This is so me really, I can't explain more about it cause its just what i did. Let the story continue..

One day they saw each other at the airport, had a short exchange words and the girl said that she would call him when she's is back from her trip. However, on the same evening she died on a plane crash, he was devastated. On the same night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart yet again, and found out that she was really the missing part from his heart..

Damn, what a touching story to me, maybe because this is exactly what happen to us, but maybe not serious as in, the girl died. Thats why guys can never understand guys and girls can never understand guys.. Sometimes we don't really mean in what we say or our actions.. This guy was never given a second chance cause yeah, he can't. Sad uh, I am too..

Hais. Words can cost u dearly.......

Gonna meet Farhan earlier tomorrow to look for a shirt for my birthday. I was shocked when he told me he might just get a Agnes B wallet tomorrow lol! That slut never spend more than 200sgd for any non-electronics related shit. Hahaha.

I am super, crazy fucking tired right now, did lot of clearing up today but didn't expect it to be so tiring. Probably its the sudden change in body clock, been working 4am-12pm for a few days and suddenly its 9am-6pm today.

Alright time for some songs session and relaxing..

I hope you read this and understand that I made mistakes too...

2 main issues right now.

Alright, life just got slightly tougher after today, gotta make decisions, gotta show lots of initiative..

CWO just told me i have an interview schedule with the Head Air Logistics of Airforce regarding signing on. I gotta work my way to up my Pes status, many other things to sort out. I might have a chance now yet I am procrastinating. I don't wish to miss the Udon detachment with my batch boys too. Not sure if I'm ready to redo my BMT, not sure if i should really choose Airforce as my career. Any advices? Hmm..

The second issue has always been an issue like 6 months ago.. Should i, should i not.

Troubled.

Fuck.

Was hoping for an 4am shift so i can get home early on a Friday... but i got this wtf 9am shift, damn it.

Can't wait for this on Saturday with poly peeeeeps:



Gonna celebrate Lee's 21st birthday also, like almost half a month later. Oppps. Everyone's too busy, i tried to help to plan but failed... In any case i won't forget how helpful he was during poly days when i encounter some really screwed up problem hahahah.

I really miss those poly days man, we would hang out in town like nobody's business. Not worried of being late for lessons.. Stayed in school to achieve some big project together with my best mates, damn.

I wish someone could guide me in making those really major decisions. I might look decisive, MIGHT, but well, I'm not.

You got me, uh?

Saturday, I'm one day nearer!!

Hell yeah tomorrow is Thursday. Hope after my shift we won't need to go for the monthly CO call.... I'll be damn shag to even listen what the hell he is saying. First time waking up so early, like fucking 2.30am when i don't even see a single soul on the main road. Quite a good experience and this will just be my first few times, 1 more year of duties to go..

Thanks to JJ, I don't have to walk to squadron in the road without lamp post, i swear its damn scary 3am in the morning.. Phew.

Just as i thought i can purchase songs from iTunes that day, its finally made available to my fellow Singaporeans!! Woohoo. I rather buy selected songs than the whole album cause not every song is gonna be good. Actually, not like i purchase albums from stores before lol!

Really like those 2 korean songs in my previous post, just this 2 my friends. I'm not a Kpop fan.

Progressing well with my story book hehe, slightly proud of myself. Finally read something which i totally understand, imma take my time, might just finish it only at the end of this year.

Good news is that my Sis is paying half the buffet money for my birthday hehe, and my mum is gonna top up an additional of 500sgd! Alvin is gonna pay the cake for me, niceeee.

Bad news is that my mum told me that my Sis is gonna pay full for the buffet, okay la I shouldn't be so greedy lol.

Lots of commotion about the heavily discussed topic of money scam in CHC. Sometimes I wonder why those christians still feel a need to continue respecting their pasters.... He took your hard earn money! Nevertheless, nothing gotta do with me so, relac.

This is really an old video but any of you who need a laugh, you can watch this:

 

Alright gonna sleep soon.

I need more than laughter everyday....

Guard off.

Did my torturous guard yesterday, can't wait for the 24hrs to over so badly. This senior really, motherfuckingblowjob. I really need to type that.

Search and search and finally found it!

What the fug right, i'm listening to korean songs. I have to admit it is really good espcially this 2:

This is newer off course.

Slightly old but still nice.

I only like this 2 in the album so don't think imma Korean freak, hell no. Lol

I wish i'm seeing stars everyday....

Mixed feelings yet again.

I'm still awake and i need to be awake again at 6.30am later on. Hope i'll be sleepy tomorrow when i reach camp. Gonna sleep, eat and read hahah, READ.

Had post father's day dinner at Chui Xiang Kitchen around Queestown area, food's pretty good and prices rather reasonable, so if any of you thinking where to for a simple dinner, this can be a good one. Been long since i saw Chester, he is back for summer vacation, invited him to my birthday celebration too wahaha.

The attendance is increasing and the hole in my pocket is getting bigger even quicker hahaha.

Actually im looking forward to it, cause it would be cool to see my secondary school, poly, army and airforce friends together plus my relatives, nice.

Prepared Spicy lobster maggie mee, roller coaster bbq flavour, apple juice and my favourite sugared sweet from 7-11 for tomorrow's battle with time. Had a hard time to stop myself from buying cigarettes, i did though. Haiz.

Very tough, so tough........... 

Shortie weekend.

Finally, this week comes to an end. Even when it comes to the last day of the week, they wanna squeeze the hell outta us, 11hours today, omg shag. We could have gone home earlier and i'll to the sergeants graduation, but thanks to a pilot, we were stuck in base zzz.

Successfully handled the aircraft on my own today, so damn stress. When the pilot is doing his walkaround before the flight, my heart thump really quickly, afraid that he might find something wrong. This is not easy man!! Everytime the jet takes off I worry that the aircraft might not come back in a peace. Won't be able to rest well in that short period, damn.

I only have a short Saturday, most probably gonna spend some time with my relatives. But fuck, i'm doing guard on Sunday and guess what, its the most fucked up senior doing guard with me. Double shit zz.

On the happier note, my birks arrived like finally after 2 weeks. Satisfied with the order still, at least i know its authentic.

Made some preparations for my birthday celebration, decided to order from this company:
 
http://www.rasel.com.sg/menu/buffet.htm

My sis said its good because some of her friends have tried it before. I'm seriously cool with anything as long as the guests likes it.

I'm so lazy to what, decorate the function room? Gotta reach early stick this and that... If i really need to do it i hope my sis does it for me hahahah. This ain't a guy thing man! We're just cool about everything, unlike girls so picky..... Oooops.

Lots of new music leaked in iTunes rip quality, love em but not all. 

Linkin Park:


Kinda like first few and the last songs from LP album, the others kinda boring rap.

Maroon 5:


So far i only like the first and second song from this album. Hahah im picky when it comes to music.

This is not bad, semi addicted to this for now.

Just got Flo-rida's Wild One's album, gonna listen on bed, put myself to sleep....

I'm so wrong.........

Emotions.

After so long, i finally saw this video.

Very nice song, and the way she show in her expressions, i totally can feel it.

Weekends over, gosh.

It seems like weekend had just started but basically it has ended for many NSF. Next week is gonna be quite a fierce week for me, all aircrafts are back from Thailand, its gonna be a full swing flying.

Encik Gan got our passport number, expiry date and stuffs already, most probably, I'm going to Thailand, Udon, for freaking 5 weeks. I don't wish to go drinking every week with all the Enciks cause they are really crazy.

Deliberating on whether should i get a:

iPod touch?



iPad 1?



Or a Sony Z?



Thinking of getting one of this so it can accompany me throughout the 5 weeks and my remaining 7months in National Service. But i really have no idea because every item has its advantages and disadvantages, but farhan suggest Sony Z.....

My sis friend just got a confirmation that on 14th July i can have the function room for my birthday celebration, I'm so lucky cause its just freaking 30sgd! Wahaha. But it's just gonna be a small party, invited around 50+ people but most probably only 40+ will be coming, hope no one expects too much.

Also thinking if i should get a Mahattan Portage backpack...



The backpack my sis bought from Taiwan is spoilt, the zip doesn't work for the outer compartment and there's where i keep my most important stuff such as camp pass, wallet etc.

So many things to buy damn it.

Also, i made a huge step to improve my english by buying a story book, its my first ever book I've bought since i was a kid hahaha, disgraceful.

This was the book i bought:

I read the back of the book and it looks like a mixture of thrill and love. I didn't even realise i like books with romantic storyline until i visit Prologue Ion yesterday, that's not being gay! Its because i feel that i understand how the author felt when she/he was writing the book. Gonna try to finish this in 2 months, its not crazily thick.

Alright gonna sleep in awhile, gotta be fresh and ready tomorrow.



Hmmm, what should i do?

Dilemma

Apple:

The 15-inch MacBook Pro will be 0.71 inches (1.8 centimeters) thick and weigh 4.46 pounds (2.02 kilos) and include the retina display, described as "the world's highest resolution notebook display with over five million pixels, three million more than an HD television.

This looks like a good sign, most probably gonna get this for my university next year, double boot it with windows, perfect laptop.

Sometimes i feel that we usually don't treasure our things until we realise that its gone. For example, my iMac is sitting there everyday and i'm using it, don't really feel so blessed about it, but one day if its gone, i'll feel that i haven't treasure it enough. I need to start appreciating whatever that's around me...

The enciks bought like almost 30+ durians to celebrate durian festival, and to be honest i don't even know there's such day. They even bought coconut drinks and liang teh for us to make sure we don't "overheat" lol. Encik gan even said "tomorrow or friday who take MC, i will kill u" lmao at his tone totally.

If we are gonna get PE-ed successfully tomorrow, i'm just waiting for an interview with the OC and i'm ready to sign off my own aircraft. I'm not kidding this is holy shit heavy responsibility.

In case you don't know what i'm going in airforce.
Although i like this job, i feel its a regular job instead of an NSF! Our duty is really crucial..

I don't really know what i should do. After seeing you, i feel like talking to you.. but on the hand i don't wanna feel hurt again. I wish you could tell me a cool, direct and happy answer..


If time could be turned back, i promise i would...............

Its now physically and mentally tiring.

Reported to camp at 5.45am today, luckily the aircrafts are only flying today and friday. Supported flying and also had our Personal Evaluation since the sky was dark until the sky went dark again.

We all perspire like crazy, the amount of walking distance i covered today might just be about 5km within my area omg, this is madness, physically tiring.

While filling up the forms to sign off our aircraft, i was so scared to make a mistake. Yz and me made quite a terrible mistake which might get us into real trouble. Hope the IC be more lenient on noobies like us.. This form can be used on civilian court to charge you, no joke, mentally stressed up.

As mentioned, was forced to take leave yesterday. Didn't really regret, instead i was thankful about it. My sis and i got home about 2am monday morning!! The USS trip organised by my dad company was really enjoyable. The rides were opened into the night and it was much more thrilling and cooling, and the sun wasn't there to make you feel sticky all over. But still, the Jurassic Park ride screw me up! We were trying to avoid the water 3/4 through the ride and then it came the mass splash of water........

AND MY SIDE WAS THE WORST WTF!

My whole Birkinstock was soaking in water luckily i already ordered a new one hehe. We experienced the cyclone  roller coaster thrice hahaha, finally get to take it more than once and the waiting time is like less than 10mins?! Previously i went on a saturday and i wated fucking 45mins just for 45seconds, whaddaheck. Had the 20inch pizza thanks to the vouchers given by my dad's company woohoo, it was super tasty, anyone going to USS the next time should try it.

Spend 1/2 the day my own yesterday, went down to National Skin Center to collect the remaining cream to ensure the acne doesn't act up again! Trained back to Clementi for some pool training, and i hate it when my palms get sweaty for nothing, can't cue properly for nuts zz. I'm all over Singapore yesterday, alone, like a tourist.
My day got brighter when i meet Jiaxuan, haven't seen her for like 3months. Its good to see her, feel so comfortable talking to her.. Settled down for dinner at Ippudo for ramen, i'm not really a fan of ramen but i have to say that this ramen really taste good. She gave me the stuff that she actually wanted to prepare for my 21st birthday... and i passed her some stuff that she left at my house. I can't bear to part with her although what was written on my face was, yeah i'm fine i'm okay, but i'm not...

Damn, I haven't got over her at all.

Tomorrow will be a better day...................

Extracted from Yahoo.

Breakup tip 3: Avoid binging on booze

Whatever you do, don’t seek refuge in alcohol because, as much as your favourite tipple may cheer you up, it can make your emotions come crashing back down twice as fast. You’re more likely to drink more than usual after a breakup to help you relax and forget about your worries, but alcohol makes more problems than it brings about solutions. One minute you’re having a quiet drink over a meal with your friends, and the next you’re knocking back tequila slammers like there’s no tomorrow. You wake up with a banging headache and a ‘sent messages’ folder (all to your ex) longer than the list of drinks you managed to chug back the night before. Avoid alcohol at all costs. Don’t keep it in the fridge, don’t walk past the shop, and don’t even look at the pub on your way home from work.

Is it true..? Should be.

Still the same

Quite a number of us were forced to take leave these few days, the operations side doesn't have much flying to do, kinda last minute but we don't have much choice also.

Had a short catch up with poly clique this evening, had our usual House of Steamboat! Been a long time since i met farhan, 1 month ago, usually we have lots of bullshit to talk about haha, gonna meet him and jason for lunch at Manhattan tomorrow!

Have lots to say, but don't really know where to start. I dreamt of you 2-3 times in a couple of days, mind-blowing really.. This thing is really gonna haunt me down, for this year at least. Feel so uncomfortable haiz :(

Visited theQshop on friday, saw some cues like Fury and Lucasi, but Lucasi is totally out of my budget lol. I'm considering to get Fury which cost around 181sgd, since its gonna be my long time hobby.

Visited Kinokuniya just now also! Totally have no idea what book should i get. Interested to get a book from the Self-enrichment section but somehow i feel weird about it and i don't know why, gonna seek some advice from the mard tomorrow hehe.

It starts to rain heavily at night these few days, kinda good for stay home people like me, such a cooling night to sit infront of my iMac and chill, watch some movies and videos.

Pardon me for being vain for awhile, hahaha finally get to test our the front camera of my iMac. This is my favorite lepak position while using my com.

Just ordered my Birkinstock too, cost a bomb! 93sgd! I'm sick of my current Florida hehe. My mum is prolly gonna nag for a few days for wasting money, but fuck it.

 

Like this design plainly because if i were to wear jeans with it i won't look so stupid. Sometimes i just feel like wearing jeans but not shoes, haha weird.

Sometimes i don't really get it, must u really party so hard and crazy that you need to club for like 3-4 times a month?! I know i don't have much say, but as girl, i don't know i just feel its not so right. Your mum won't want you to lead this type of life. Its for your own good and safety also. But then again, i can only express, nothing i can do or say... I really regret, but life goes on, Do your best Shaun.

Got so into Secret Circle recently, a really good black magic and witches series show. Can't stop when i start!! I don't really wanna watch it not because i don't like it, but because i will just finish all in one day and i will not have anything to do the next day zzz.

Going USS tomorrow with my family members, my dad's company organising this family event probably to encourage family bonding. Its from 7pm-11pm, gonna experiencing taking roller coaster when i can't see a shit omg, hahahahaha. Since the breakup, i spend quite some time with my family, cause they're my closest one and i found out that during this 2years plus i've been neglecting them, simply because i was so into my relationship (i'm not putting the blame on anything). Just that i would encourage teens at our age to juggle well between love and family, its important.

Alright, time to watch some euro 2012...............

Just a sweet dream..

Had a pretty weird, but yet sweet and happy dream. Miraculously, you came back to my life but then...
 

Just a dream....

Really like Pumped Up Kicks, its a calm yet nice song. So hard to describe my feelings nowadays, because its a mixture of almost everything.. Definitely uncomfortable.

What i really need now...? What i really am or becoming into...?

Somebody enlighten me :(

Idea.s

Something like this! But with more wavy currents.

Decent saturday.

Saw something interesting on yahoo news:

If he chooses the seat opposite you facing a wall he can’t be distracted by people watching – meaning he only has eyes for you! The more he focuses on you, the more he will be able to concentrate on pleasuring you during sex. A man who decides to sit in prime view of the bar may be looking for something or someone else.

 haha this is funny, but damn, its not that true though.

Cycled for probably 10km at East Coast today, with secondary school cliques. Its been a long time since we had an outing together and seen each other 2 days in a row. Some working, some schooling and some busy with other stuff, decent catch up though.

Gonna rest tomorrow and be prepared for a hectic week ahead as usual. But might just head to town to get some books. I really need to read and write, a lot!! Have a few NUS Electrical Engineering seniors in squadron serving their remaining 1 or 2 months of NS and they gave me useful advice. They told me life there is really 2 times worst than in squadron, totally no life. damn i dont know if im gonna be prepared for this 3years of shit.. for my future i dont have much options..

Read an article and it said Singapore has 188,000 fucking millionairs, can u really god damn believe it?! This is really crazy.

Picked up some new songs while spending 3 solid hours on youtube reviewing about those hot songs. One of them i like most was Flo Rida's Whistle.

Hmm, its like everywhere i go, i picked up pieces of broken memories, i meant EVERYWHERE. The previous relationship really walk me through my teenage years which carve deep shit in ma head. I remember asking u before if we were to break up will u forget all that we've done?.......

Feel like putting a whole piece of fine F22 artwork on my right chest and a USS John C. Stennis aircraft carrier at the bottom of my right shoulder with some wavy water current. Its gonna be big, im still thinking....

Relaxing song for the weekend:

Life's short, try everything, live well. 

Short day, not so good one.

Reported at the F1 pit today to help shift some stuff. Hello im a dedicated crew chief not a storeman leh zzz. Still get things done though and all of a sudden my OC told me im on half day OIL. Like what the heck suddenly half day off. Eat my sunday and return slowly?! Turban max.

Sometimes, life is really rocky, ups and downs every now and then. So yeah imma try to be positive and more happy even during the down part..

Should share this song with those who haven't heard it, this is good! :)

Hope to see you soon!

New hopes?

Well. slightly positive title. hmmm. Like a super impromptu last minute crazy decision to go rebel at like wtf 10:59pm before the entrance fee hits 30bucks. Didn't really do much shit, just walk around hear those latest music and thats it.

6-day week ended. Really shagged out last week on every single day. Fighter group commander changing so guess tomorrow gonna be a slacker day than usual.

I hope this hope can grow :) looking forward for a different life.

How bout this for a bad tuesday.

Totally..

Worn out.

Its like no difference from staying in, just that i get to sleep on ma bed. Back home, sleep, wake up and than back to base. Please let this tiring week be over..

If only you were here..

It feels like tuesday.

The tittle of this post speak for itself.. This is screwed up. Gonna be have my evaluation later on at 12pm, and i will be qualified to solo an aircraft myself.. Excited and anxious i don't know.

Had a late night pool session with sk, talk cock session too. Girls, army, life and people etc.. 

Hmm, life hasn't been really fulfilling for the past 7months or so.  Never felt so happy when a day started since then. I still can remember when it all started out as nothing......

Sometimes, i just don't understand those fucked up seniors, i don't get it at all. We're just NSFs afterall man

Bad weekend.

Created a simple and new blog! Basically to vent down my frustrations. Hmm this is kinda a bad weekend, doing sportscar tomorrow. my first few ever times doing duty on a weekend, more to come..

Since squadron was back from korak, i didn't really have time for myself except the lonely 172 journey to base, listening to all my favorite songs. Been reminiscing over the past, non-stop. I tell myself to stop, well i can't. many caring people gave me good advises and tell me to move on..

Seeing you leading a indecent life, hurts me much. Please help me somebody..

First one.

Hello.