Set fire to the rain.

Finally, back home after 24hours of duty. I was attentively listening to the National Day Rally 2012 yesterday right before bed time, and now I'm stuck between choices.

PM Lee said something "like don't go to local universities just because its a path everyone will take" and that "Singapore Institute of Technology (SIT) will be the 5th university in Singapore...."

I'm fucking tempted to switch to Aerospace Electronics in SIT now, argh. I really think that I'm not totally an electronics student studying in NUS.

HOW?!?!?!

Any good advice?

Back on a swing.

Another short weekend, oh man.

There was last minute changes to the guard list so I'll be back tomorrow. Damn.

I hope the Taiwan trip can be sorted out as soon as possible, I can't wait to go overseas during my long leave in December. I still have quite a number of OIL, hope to spam it all at one shot. The weather will be sex and the food will taste even better, holyshit, I really hope we go!

Need to have some drinks, take a chill and say NO.

Wake up call.

Oh well, thanks for that reminder.

People who you can't live without, can live without you.

Shattering

Oh well, I guess majority of Singaporeans enjoyed a long weekend except for some, and unfortunately I belong to some. Today is the only rest day and very soon, it goes back to the same routine again.

I need to watch a movie and I wanna watch this:



Guess lots of people already watched it because of the long enjoyable weekend..

Other than times I've spend in squadron, I realised that I'm a very unhappy person. Its like once I step out of Tengah Airbase, my mood changed. There's too much work to do in squadron so I don't even have time to think about anything, eventually I'll be one of those no life dude and spend most of my time in base.

People often say life's short why not be happy? But I just can't and looks like I can understand those who are in the same shoes as me.

Please erase off those unhappy and hurting memories of mine, and I'll be a happier man, please.

Torturing Tuesday.

Oh fuck man, got bruises and abrasion here and there on my body today. Its really a shit day.

1. While pumping the JFS, the whole stainless steel bar whack onto my head, causing a baluku
2. Ram my hips on a freaking 15cm diameter bolt on the wing tank
3. Got abrasion on my thighs probably because of my pants, never had this before, don't really know why the fuck it will happen today
4. I don't know why the fuck the engine oil blasted out from the pipe when I was doing servicing, scratched my arm on the door and got burnt by the fucking oil. It hit right on my face also zzz
5. Got fucked because I added a new page in my form right before we are going home

What the bullshit nonsense is this seriously.

Maybe I was distracted all the while, over things which I shouldn't dwell on about.

Alright, some new trainees came to fuck my jet up as well today and also delaying my time. I just realised, JC boys really can't work, probably they can be a lawyer cause all they have to do use their brain memory and talk. I don't call them JC guys cause they are simple too childish when I heard what the fuck they are talking about. They suck really badly in hands on shit.

So much of complains, yet I still like what I'm doing, just ran out of a safety charm beside me today.

If we're really gonna watch a movie this weekend, I can't wait!



Yeah if we meant to be we will.

OMG WTF MORNING.

Before I wanna say anything, I would like to thank my IC and the guard duty personnel at the church gate. What a holy shit morning. CP called me at 3.57am asking where the fuck I was, I totally jumped out of my bed shouting "fuck!" lol! Literally shouted it out loud. If there's a video camera in my room, I'm sure it will be a epic video hahah. I quickly changed into my uniform while brushing my teeth in just 3mins, don't ask me how I did it so fast cause I had no idea either.

I ran down, and the fucked up thing was I never had problems getting cab at this timing except today!! Had to walk all the way to the traffic light opposite Jurong Point till I get a cab. I was like "UNCLE TENGAH AIRBASE FASTER I'M RUSHING". I swear he fucking freaked out and thought that Singapore was like going to war with some country, lol max. Fortunately, this particular guard duty personnel is really damn nice to let me in, the church gate was suppose to close at 4am but it was already 4.12am then. If I were to enter by the main gate it will take me additional 10 freaking minutes. Phew, I ran like nobody's business, sweating like fuck and took over my jet.

What a morning....

No activities for me today just a chilling relaxed Saturday, would be a good rest for the upcoming week.

Hmmmm, well now its so clearly written on your face. Guess no time for hope, cause the hope, is all....

National Day..?

Alright gonna spend my National Day in camp yet again. 1year ago, over 600 botaks in Tekong were sitting in front of the pathetic television watching the nation celebrate, that was one of the worst feeling ever. I swear next year I'll be fucking near the parade watching it live, like what I did 3years back where life was so carefree and perfect. I didn't expect that I would be in camp again this year, well I guess other than this, almost everything changed.

Yizhong and I is definitely gonna be the main crew chief tomorrow, gonna be semi-hell tomorrow.

Went for my dental appointment cause I'm going for overseas detachment. I don't even know why until my encik told me this wtf thingy. He said that in case we die overseas we can use the X-ray of our gum to match our bodies. WTF?!

Hmmm. Random thoughts but..
I believe that if you are really willing to put in all your effort for something that you really want, everything is possible. Off course, don't expect yourself to be a millionaire before 30 and fucking think that by working hard now you are gonna make it. Life is never easy and its never gonna be a straight line graph, its always a curve that's why people always say "life is tough". When you ever see a tough math question where the line is straight? There will always be happy and sad times, face it.

But life is short, I feel that we should make the most of it, be happy. But how are you even gonna feel happy if you don't work for the things you want.

Alright, I'll be on duty on Saturday from 4am till afternoon, hope to catch a movie with the guys in the evening. Either one of this will do hahahah.







Off course I won't prefer to watch Ice Age 4, spending 11bucks to watch cartoon is kinda retarded lol.

Hope we will get off on Friday, can spend some time with my batch boys... This week is like damn tiring again, the management like to take everything in their hands and we NSFs gotta tank it. Shit man. Gonna watch some movies in awhile chillout and rest

Alright, buzz off people.
Hey you, will we?

Too much

One word,

Unhappy.

Shaky Monday.

Well, as usual again, weekends flew past pretty fast but its a good one though. Met up with just Jason in town for some pool session and dinner initially. It would be sad and wasted if we were to be home before 12am. So we plan to go for some drinks, like have a beer chit chat chillout at some bar. However..... We suddenly thought of  the remaining Sour plum vodka at Zouk! Hahah. Its crazy you know, just 2 of us going to club with 28 shots of vodka in front of us and we desperately need to finish em. Don't ask me why, lol! It was a good music night, spend most of my time at the pillar enjoying the songs. Jason had a better one...... HAHAHA.

So much of a fun Saturday but Sunday was over when i woke up. It was like 4.38pm when my eyes grew open, I still remember the exact timing because I can't believe my own eyes lol. Rushed off for my appointment to get my long hair trimmed off, nobody would believe I'm serving National Service with that hair length.

Oh man, what a Monday to start off really... I'm shagged out already?! 4 more days to go -__-

One of my batch boy got so Emo when he got fucked really badly for making terrible mistakes. He even said that he would rather go Army "simple job just chiong and shoot". It is funny (not to be mean) because he is usually a not affected by scoldings type of guy. Our job is really not easy like what people think of Airforce NSFs, the 8-5pm slackers.

Damn, in a blink of an eye I realised that I've been smoking for 6months. Not those really screwed up type, on average its a pack every fortnight. I've probably shorten my life span for 6years but from the massive amount of stress we receive everyday, its not easy to deal with. Guess somebody need to be there to stop me... One advice, don't start.

Just as i thought of the somebody who can stop me from continuing...

I had a bad feeling about something, not really appropriate to write about it out here. The scary thing is that this feeling is firm, its like as if I'm already with dealing it right now. And there, in less than a few days and a few hours ago, I receive my first hit...

Its hard to share shit with someone who isn't really in your shoes really, even if he is your really best friend, don't you think so? The most you can do is to brag about the problem but in the end its you who face it.

Probably because its a Monday so it explains my crazy thoughts...




I sincerely hope that its Just because of Monday Blues.