Feelings.

Picked this up from NUS Confessions Facebook page and find it rather interested and maybe related to me? Umm..

"We graduated. I thought I would be able to start a new chapter in my life- get over my college liking for you and our relationship. It was also a good opportunity since we wouldn't have been in the same country for the mths. And I guess I moved on with my life. I jumped deeply into whatever I was doing, spent fun times with my friends, dated other guys and got over the breakup.

But I met you after months and hung out in a group. And there I was... back at the beginning. Still liking you. Still wondering what it would be like to hang out with you after work. Still thinking how I could contribute and make up for all the reasons we broke up. And still designing stories on how maybe, just maybe we still stood a chance. I know I was selfish and overly independent and uptight. I don't know why my mind is playing tricks on me.

When I saw you in your casual clothes, all I thought of was how we used to cuddle. I guess I didn't tell you then, but I really liked cuddling with you. Your heavy hands and chest- they made me feel comfortable and safe.

I have no other way of telling you this. Whatever you may think, I don't care about any other guy in my life. If you read this, I know you'll know it's me. And if you feel the same way, please please tell me something, at least indirectly. I promise I'll respond openly."

Damn.

School is here.

2 years passed in a blink of an eye, and right now I'm gonna start worrying about studies yet again! Have to adapt to this new phase of life, gonna meet challenging and extremely smart people almost everywhere.

Tomorrow will be a cool pre-school preparation, gonna have my Qualifying English Test (QET) in the morning and math refresher lessons subsequently in the afternoon. Its 8am - 5pm omfg. Nonetheless, its nothing compared to my working hours in the force.

Gonna miss dealing with aircraft operations, the people in my squadron and lastly the pride... Sounds like some ego shit but it will be in you when you're posted to a fighter squadron hmmm..

Cheers to those ORD personnel,  joining the civilian life real soon :)

Time Flies

I was walking home 2hours ago and a pinch of DKNY apple perfume was caught by the side my nose, you came to my mind right away. Not really an emotional post, just wanna emphasis on how time has past so quickly that I couldn't believe myself when I started counting.

When was the last time I woke up so early in the morning just to catch a train to Admiralty MRT station queuing up for peach green tea with colour coconut jelly and take a 20mins stroll to your house probably perspiring already. With you by my side within 20 centimeters on public transport, every breath I take contains a decent amount of DKNY apple perfume is just unforgettable I guess. When I ask myself when was the last time, I am totally taken aback by the fact that it's already close to 2 god damn years.

Hmmmm..

I was just having a random conversation with Farhan over Whatsapp and yeah, we can foresee that once everyone ORD, we're gonna have even lesser meet ups. That is like so not good......

Seriously, ORD? Not so much to look forward to :/